bittersweet.

so this past weekend one of my best friends, caitlin graduated. it is kinda weird knowing she is not gonna be back next semester when i just wanna pop in to see her or just hang out. someone i would see everyday, whenever i wanted to, is gonna be gone. and in the real world. i have only known her for a year and half, but i just love the friendship God has blessed us with!

caitlin is one of those friends you always love to be around. i thoroughly enjoy spending time with her, whether it is "dancing", doing her feet, or just talking. you dont come across those friends that you click with almost instantly, very often. like every friendship there are up's and down's, but i can honestly say it has been a whole lot of fun getting to know her better.

this past week has been kind of a roller coaster of emotions.

break has started. school is finished. all my friends are gone, and home. caitlin graduated. she also turned another year younger. ill be heading back to my own stomping grounds in the next few days. i dont really know what all to feel. excited; sad; nervous; happy; glad. i say it is all bittersweet.

you dont really realize what all you have until its gone. not necessarily dead, but just not with you physically. like when i am at school, my friends are there, and soccer is there...but i am also missing home, and my family. but when i am at home my family is with me, and old friends are there, but i am missing my friends from union, soccer, and just even being at school. it is like i can never find a happy medium.

that sounds awful. i am blessed in more ways than i even know, and wherever i am is where i am called to glorify the Lord. He is teaching me to be content with wherever i am, at whatever stage in life i am at - so that His kingdom can be furthered.

alls i know is that i am thankful for things like skype, phones, and facebook. i dont know if i could survive off of hand written letters.

within the past few hours God has shown me the amazing people He has placed in my life, but also the amount of friends that i dont tell enough how thankful i am for them. i encourage you to do exactly that...thank the people in your life that you love.

"dont cry because it is over; smile because it happened." - dr. seuss